Without A Word

Do you want them because you know they’re there?
It isn’t love, it’s lonileness.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don’t want them to get hurt?
It isn’t love, it’s pity.

Those lines were from an article I just read when I got home today. I admit that’s how I felt when I read it a year ago for this certain guy. But while I was browsing my notebooks and found this, I sort of found it didn’t apply now. I find it already strange enough that I find my thoughts stray to him when I’ve got nothing to do and when I’m in the middle of work, he sometimes pops on my mind. But I don’t want to jump to conclusions and say that I like him. Maybe I just got too accustomed to his presence, that’s all.

He’s the only guy that I could talk to with just about anything, except with serious matters of the heart. We don’t talk about it and I feel uncomfortable talking about it. Haha. It’s been a long time since I last saw him, but I know he’s doing fine. I should stop thinking and probably there isn’t a reason why he’s bugging me lately. -.- I haven’t even thought of my crush for a while now. :S The reason why I’m afraid of having someone that I like is not the fear of getting hurt, but the fear that it might be too late. It’s sad when feelings don’t cross, and kind of a waste.

I’ll be fine in the next few days; probably my mind is still muddled since I knew today that I have failed in one subject. T_T

I shouldn’t have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
like I didn’t see it, like I couldn’t see it
I shouldn’t have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away,
I should have pretended I wasn’t listening
like I didn’t hear it, like I couldn’t hear it
I shouldn’t have heard your love in the first place

29 thoughts on “Without A Word”

  1. I like those lines in the beginning! I don’t believe in “too late” because you never know, it might not be. You can always try, and if it doesn’t work out, you can learn from the experience.

  2. I get you lol. i feel that way about a guy. idk i hate his friends but i have liked him since i was 13. idk. like i just feel a connection. and yea i feel like he won’t like me now either cause it would have been too long
    and thanks for the motivation:)

  3. It really was. Someone even threw some at me lol. He walked up to me and just threw it right in my face lol. I didn’t fuss about it though because boys will be boys lol.

    My voice sounds awful off camera lol. But on camera i just love it. πŸ˜€

    it’s takes like 1-2hr of each order. I do up to 5 orders each day. Well it depends on how what on mood I’m in lol.

    Hahaha I was going to say fuck but i like fuzz lol. πŸ˜€

    You are very welcome. You deserve it. πŸ˜€ I used your brushes on some layouts on my design site. I use the line ones. i haven’t used the flowers yet. πŸ™‚

    Aww I hope you see him again. πŸ˜€ I see mine in school everyday lol. We aren’t friends or anything. We know each other but that’s it.
    Mine knows that I like him, he just doesn’t feel the same way.

  4. Haha, yes! Well I noticed you have such an old button from my site on your advertising, or something. LOL ^.^ Maybe you could change it to my current button? πŸ™‚

    Anyway that sounds like a great way to get money. I think it’s bad to make people pay for advertising.. nobody usually does it unless your site is really popular.

  5. awww ;( well…if you’re afraid that it might be too late, then go for it~ tehehe. do you know that he doesnt have feelings for you? are you sure? o..o if not, try to make sure~ ehhehe good luck~~~~~

    ahhh bbtw i would link fanlisting collectives with you but unfortunately, mine recently went under T_T to make a long story short, my host (i had my fl collective before i got my domain) was really bad and kidna stopped updating her site and didnt respond to my emails to send me a backup of my information mysql database thingy. thank goodness im not attached to thsoe fanlistings though….eyaaa! but if i ever open one again, i will make sure to let you know ;D

  6. Hmm your post reminds me of something I do. I sometimes think about someone I liked, but I liked him over four years ago and yet my thoughts still stray to him and sometimes I would wish I still had those feelings just to experience that ‘like’ again; its all loneliness.

    Yes it is sad when the feelings aren’t mutual but just think there’s someone out there who is more deserving of your love.
    *sigh* I’m really bad at giving out comforting words when it comes to topics like this and all I can do is listen. *hugs* hope you feel better soon.

  7. I’m very damn behind right now. I have to say, it’s not a nice feeling either because I like being on top of everything. But I agree! There isn’t a point in getting comments if you feel forced to return them. I feel a bit annoyed that I get so many sometimes but at the same time I do feel grateful.

    I notice that you don’t really return comments straight away but you always do!

    Ew, definitely agree with you there. I hate getting non-blog-related comments. ;|

    I try to manage my time but that’s me – that’s how I roll. πŸ˜›

    I tried to win the iPad but unfortunately did not win. Oh well, I tried! D:

    Aw well, I don’t feel connected to the names of a few of my domains which is why I am letting them go. It’s the safe and right thing to do, really. πŸ™‚

    HAHA! You can always just save the page. Good luck with adding those members. πŸ˜€

    I found that I had the same thoughts and feelings as you did when I was single. Every time you have nothing to think about or aren’t thinking about anything – it’s all him. Sometimes I feel like everything leads back to him.

    Often we get feelings come up that we don’t want. And it can be hard to get them out of our heads. But you’re sitting safe when you say that you won’t simply say that you like him. Sometimes admitting something requires a lot of thought.

    You have such deep thoughts on this. I think it’s because you guys were very close so even now you feel that sort of connection but your feelings are “in limbo”. I love how you said the feelings don’t cross. There are so many times when it’s just “not the right time” and things fall out if someone speaks too soon or moves too slow. πŸ™

    I hope you didn’t fail! πŸ™ It would be terrible on top of your mixed emotions. Keep on smiling – you’ll pull yourself out of this swirl of confusion. *hugs* πŸ™‚

  8. Do you want them because you know they’re there?
    It isn’t love, it’s lonileness.

    Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don’t want them to get hurt?
    It isn’t love, it’s pity.

    – VERY TRUE. I felt that way for a guy when I was in highschool. I told him that I love him just because he said he loves me. The truth was, I just wanted to get over my ex. Mean, I know. But yeah, still experiencing the same thing right now. I’ve been saying I love you to this guy because he’s always there for me and he always say that he loves me. I dont want to hurt him more so I tell him I love him, too even if it’s kind of a lie. Tskk.

    I shouldn’t have looked at you in the first place. – I like this part πŸ™‚

  9. Aw, I also have a guy best friend and I used to like him too, and sadly he didn’t like me back haha. And now we’re kinda fall apart because he knew my feelings toward him and he just didn’t feel comfortable with it. Stupid guy, go away!

    I also had another best friend who is a guy, and he liked me but I didn’t like him. Ha, I was in the other position. He finally said that he liked me, but I just smiled and I said that we were better as friends. Luckily he accepted that with a smile and we were still friends now. I like guys like that. He knows how to deal with girls πŸ™‚

    Aw, so sorry about your failure.*hugs* I’m sure you can do better next time! πŸ˜‰

  10. Funny, when I said “I love you” to him last night, I remembered you. HAHA. Yeah, it would really hurt if someone would lie to me. 😐 That’s why I kinda feel bad for this guy. He makes me feel really special. And believe me, I’m really trying to love him back. Whateverr. 😐

    Tell me more about “him”. Why dont you ask him if he still likes you or tell him that you like him. HAHA. But if you cant do that, at least look for signs or something. Err. Tell me more about it, please. πŸ™‚ I love those kinds of stories. :))

    Pero ako kase, I really suck in hiding feelings. Even if I try to conceal it, super obvious pa din ako and I dont know bakit ganun. HAHA. Pero ayun, ako kase, makapal mukha ko to tell someone na CRUSH ko sya especially kung close kme tapos from the CRUSH thing, siya na bahala to find out if it has developed to something like “LIKE” or “LOVE”. HAHA. Ewan ko ba. πŸ˜€

  11. Those lines made me really think. I agree with them. Now I think about it, I’ve been pretty damn stupid with my love life. Honestly, no one I’ve dated is.. The one and now I relizie I never liked them. It’s weird…

    Good luck with everything with you m’dear! πŸ™‚

    Yeah, dreams are weird. Your like the 15th person who said that they got raped in there dream. Freaky.

  12. I also have a guy bestfriend. And we’re really close but I haven’t seen him for 4 years! I barely talk to him because of the different timezones and we have busy lives. I just can’t wait to go back there and see everyone again πŸ™‚

    LOL. That happens to me too. I’m just minding my own business when a guy pops into my head. It’s not that I like him, I mostly remember guys because of they’re funny or stupid jokes. I just end up laughing. I look like I have gone mad. HAHA.

  13. It takes me like weeks to reply comments. I just reply 15 comments that I’ve had since like forever!!! I am soo lazy. I was determined to reply comments today because I’ve been neglecting it.
    Aww you guys will always have that love. Was he your first? If he was then your guys will always love eachother.

  14. Yea like, life is all about being happy right?! idk i think there are double meanings of life lol, like you either live it or you enjoy it. and i agree with you, people shouldn’t use that line, like i am enjoying life and im not enjoying this as much. But if you say you have are leaving blogging to have a life.. well thats a lie, cause you must have had a life if you were blogging because at somepoint you were happy.
    and yea thanks, i hope i keep him as a friend, we are really close:)

  15. Thank you. <33 I love how you said that "death is like a thief in the night. We won’t know when it would come, but when it does, we’re left with nothing but a memory of what it stole". I found it very inspirational, and so true.

    It was unexpected that she passed, because we all expected her to live on. She had shown no signs of getting worse, so it was a shock.

    It's a shame that your cousin's mum wasn't even a caring mother. These kinds of things can also make us angry and question why these people had to leave. πŸ™ But I know Mitha is happy now, and her family did all they could while they were with her.

    It's all a part of mourning; we have to accept what's happened. I think that's why it's a shock to me and I'm still coming to terms with it.

    Wow, I totally understand. I can see how the story is reversed now. It's so sad, though, that it's just not the time when your paths cross. πŸ™

    Aw that's a shame you failed. *hugs* I hope you do a lot better in the finals. You'll learn from what you did wrong this time around!

  16. There’s no such thing as being “too late”. Think of all the time as yours and you have control of it. I know time isn’t ours and God knows what is best for us but there’s no harm in trying and trying.

    Anyway, my crush and I haven’t talked for weeks. I saw him wednesday night near school and I thought to myself, I am unconsciously missing him. Hahaha. arteh lang eh noh. Then I sent him a message thru FB and he replied! I thought we’re done but I guess we’re not and it’s just not the right time to do ‘chorva’ things but that’s fine, I can still wait. And if things wont go right, it’s fine at least I tried. HAHAHA wala lang, gusto ko lang ikwento =))

    I hope you’ll feel fine πŸ™‚

  17. is this from a You’re Beautiful song? hehe. =_= oh nooo i dont know much about l-o-v-e. and i dont even want to think about stuff like that because it sucks. sucks for me, i mean. i dont know. +_+

  18. I’m also so confused dear, and I sort of feel like the last part argh. But I hope that you will be able to sort out your feelings for your crush though. *hugz*

  19. …I used to hate Valentines because of all the deluded couple in my school who think theyre madly in love because theyve been together for more than a frigging week..


    I love summer. But I hate the heat!! I love it when its sunny but its slightly windy so Im not melting…

  20. I agree with Keiyt. Love has never been too late. There will always be a space for it. It just requires time and patience.

    Love is not about being loved but giving love to the person you think who deserves it.

  21. The lines are good but I don’t really think they apply to me at all. I have never thought such things were love..honestly, sorry if this offends you but I don’t know who would. Those seems like common sense to me, just saying.

    I think whoever this boy is you like him, and if you don’t now then you will soon. This is how it all started with Jamal. My thought started straying to him ALL the time and I swore I didn’t like him and that I just got accustomed to his presence which I did but sure enough I liked him.

    My mom actually does favor my sister more but she doesn’t seem to think so. She thinks everyone favors me more but if she only knew…if I had her brains I don’t know where I would be now. I think at times I do think like her but I don’t go out and do the actual stuff because I admit I am mean. I wouldn’t dare hit my own mother though, no one of my elders actually.

    I think gays are pretty cool. I’ve always wanted a gay bestfriend but I don’t know why.

    No that girl isn’t any better. I know if I was her I would have been like ‘ You NOT gonna wash your hands ?! ‘

  22. Thanks πŸ˜› I actually have my new site up now, just click my name and you should be there ^^;

    Those are harem pants. Baggy pants that are like “fashionable” or something.

    I know. I found Edward Cullen abusive and corny. D:

    Yes I’m back at school πŸ™ What a drag.

    Well if you are confused, go ahead and take a shot at talking it out. He might be feeling the same way. You don’t have anything to lose πŸ˜› I feel like an advice column at a magazine now. ==’

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