That I was a fool to think
That we’d connect
But I couldn’t get my heart out of my head,
And they just didn’t see;
No, they just couldnt know
The feeling that you get,
The places that you go…
The above verse was part of the song ‘If You Believe’ by Rachel Lampa. It’s actually one of the songs in A Walk To Remember OST. The story is so touching and made me believe that love can move mountains.
I was still young when I first saw it and couldn’t really relate to it, but I would giggle and have these moments of butterflies in my tummy which I couldn’t quite understand. 😛 All I thought back then was that when you see the person you like, you’d blush and your heart starts beating like crazy that your palms are wet with sweat and your voice get caught up in your throat that you couldn’t even say ‘Hi’ to him properly. I realized it’s not quite far from love as there’s a thin line between love and like but it’s not as deep. It’s not even half as deep. I wouldn’t even dare define it; it’s just too deep for words, even the best of swimmers get drowned when it comes to this thing, even genuises.
It has always amazed me how it made the world mad, how it made us truly happy, yet when when we get inflicted, the pain is too much yet you still hold on to that person despite of what everyone says.
How come a mere feeling rule over us that our brain are rendered helpless? Why is that no matter how intellegent you are, you become dumb when faced with a dilemma called love? I think this is one of the things that keep us going, one of life’s mysteries that we have to unfold as we go on our journey for I would never be satisfied if I leave this world without discovering about it.
And yes, I have delved into this thing, but not as deep as you’d think. I think I love someone. I’m not quite sure myself. I won’t even bother asking why; it would just drive me insane trying to figure out the reasons when all I know is there is none. Confusing, eh?