How To Deal

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The contest I was holding weeks ago ended last September 11, 2010 and I’m glad to say that Qi Wen, Erin Nicole, and Kaitlin were the winners of my little contest. ^_^ I’m so glad the contest was a success and I made people happy. Seeing happy people makes me happy as well. 🙂 Happiness can be contagious.

Speaking of happiness, I’m not really happy lately. Life has been bugging me. School is, as well. I don’t think I’ve lived my life to the fullest as they always say as we only have one life here on earth. How can you possibly enjoy life when you have heavy responsibilities to handle? I don’t know about you guys, but living life to the fullest for me means that you’re free from worries and obligations, being carefree and feeling true happiness. I guess I’ve been pretending to be happy so much that I forget that I’m only pretending.

We people have masks and reasons why do wear them vary from person to person, I guess. I really don’t want to give my everything, to reveal everything. I don’t know why, but maybe, just maybe, I don’t want others to pity me when I show my weaknesses. I admit pride is one of the things I have in me. I know how to lower it, but it’s hard.

I guess I have been thinking about so many things and I’m pressured at school since we’re quite busy now and I’m not doing well on exams lately. I really would want to catch up on my grades. I hate having low grades, especially if I studied for an exam and the result isn’t that good. Might as well not study about anything. -.-

This will become a rant post if I don’t stop here, so I’d rather eat dinner and put an end to this post. >_<

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2 thoughts on “How To Deal

  1. mei says:

    aww to bad i wasn’t able to join. it’s my first time here. maybe ill join your next contests :))

    why aren’t you happy? you must learn how to enjoy life. life is beautiful you know. it’s up to us how we’ll live it.

  2. Gretch says:

    Congratulations on the winner!

    Well I guess, if there’s no responsibilities then we won’t know we’re free from them right? I guess everyone has their responsibilities and everyone’s feeling that way once in a while. But yeah, you’re right,it would be nice to just spend the day lazing around once in a while.

    And I can totally relate on the study thingy. It’s totally unfair how some are geniuses and how some have photographic memory and stuffs. TT_TT

    Goodluck with school. Arggh here comes finals. I hope you’ll do well.