I thought I’m over it. A friend of mind told me to get over it. Another told me that it was okay. But I don’t feel like it is.
Last week, I was contacted by some company telling me that I’m scheduled for an interview for the next day because one of my teachers actually recommended me there for an OJT. It was quite flattering seeing as I don’t do really good at school. At first, I agreed just to see what the interview was like. Some of my classmates where there too, and one of my Programming teachers was one of the panelists for the second interview.
I wasn’t expecting they were going to include concepts and such, and one of my weaknesses when it comes to interview is I lose my guts real quick and would stammer when I speak in English as I’m not used to speaking it, just writing. Yes, lame, I know. And I flunked the damn interview.
I don’t expect myself to feel this way when I found out some of my classmates were already contacted because they were accepted. I guess I just don’t want to be left behind or something and that’s why I feel down right now.
If I didn’t get it, then it’s not meant to be, I know, but it’s hard not to feel bad about yourself.